A Replacement

This time, it's not about me
It's about us.
How we keep spelling the love words
But ended up to be parted aways.

"I hold onto every single memory, because I know we won't be making anymore."

I'm writing this, as a note to my replacement.

Dear replacement,
You may know nothing about me.
Cause if he might tell you about me,
His eyes will light up and you can see how much he loves me
His mouth will keep telling you the story about me, trembeling
His face will shine out the joy of the moment he's with me

I was the girl before you,
the girl who loves him to the core of her world
I was the girl he looked at with love in his eyes.
I was the girl who held a place in his heart.
I was the one he found refuge in.
I was the one he held hands with.
I hope you never find about how we fell apart, cause it is terribly painful -for both of us.
And I hope, you two will never need to experience that pain.

Girl, you don't know how much blessed you are to have him in your life.
He is the best that could happen to anyone.
It hurts me, to let you have him.
It hurts me up to date that we were never meant to be.

Please, don't hurt him like I hurt him.
I hope you learn to love his flaws and live with it.
I hope you learn how to embrace him when everything is falling apart,
And above that all, I hope you learn that you are his future and I am his past.

It absolutely hurts that we drifted apart,
It hurts more to know that he found a replacement for me when I thought I was his first and forever love,
but I guess I was wrong.
I hope he loves you enough to keep you happy forever. And you'll do that too.

He has been through hell, he has seen the worst, he found love and lost it.
Please take care of his heart and nurture it with care.
I hope you become the last love of his life.
I hope you never have to leave him like the way I did.

Cherish every moment you with him.
Love him as if there's no tomorrow.
I know that he loves hard and deeply and he may do the impossible to keep you with him.
Please never leave him.
Be the coolness to his eyes.
I hope you never has to sleep with the guilt of breaking someone you love.
I hope that you will never see darker days alone.
I hope that you two live an eternity of happiness.

Sincerely,
Old news.

Pengulangan Aku

Semua ini akan dimulai dari kata aku,
Aku, yang selama ini punya mimpi
Aku, yang selalu ingin jadi si pemimpi
Aku, yang selama ini selalu ingin jadi yang paling berarti
Aku, yang selalu menjadi pengharapan bagi semua yang memiliki arti

Aku, semua ini tentang aku,
Aku, yang selalu mencoba untuk terus bertahan dalam kesendirian
Aku, yang selalu berpikir bagaimana bisa aku bertahan
Aku, yang selalu ingin pergi dari kesengsaraan

Aku, semua ini aku,
Aku, yang selalu haus kasih sayang
Aku, yang selalu rindu ditimang
Aku, yang selalu merintih dalam kemalangan

Aku, bisakah kau rasa jadi aku?
Aku, kau pikir aku tak bersyukur?
Aku, kau bilang aku harus melihat kearah yang jauh
Aku, kau sebut aku harus mengikhlaskan
Aku, kenapa harus aku?

Aku, sebelum mulai berceloteh tentang apa yang harus ku lakukan, baiknya kau diam
Aku, karna yang kulihat hanya diriku sendiri
Aku, semua ini tentang aku
Aku, coba mengerti sedikit menjadi aku
Aku, jangan kau bandingkan dengan yang bukan aku

Aku, semua ini aku.
Aku.
Aku.
Aku!

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Semua masih ada

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Berhari mencari tau

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Dan seketika dentingan musik memuncah hati

Tangis nya pun meluap

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Ia hanya rindu

Rindu semua seperti sedia kala

Rindu semua saat berkumpul bersama

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